Thursday, July 1, 2010

Forgiving????

Is forgiving that easy?? ....

I wonder that is easy. Recently, i met few counsellors and friends. We had some talks and then i tell them my thoughts about something that have troubling me for months. Then they tell me the key to my problem is to forgive. SIGH... Why?

Can u imagine someone had his house on renovation for months while i was going to have my stpm... i try to contact and find for solution with a peaceful method with the house owner... after few attempts, i cant get any solution with them at that time... i cant study and rest properly for months... a few days after my exam end, the renovation end too... WHAT THE @#$$!! Fine!! one afternoon while i am the only one at home, suddenly i saw his wife bringing a contractor and climbed over the fence and enter my house compound.. they talking and pointing here and there like nobody business.. the worst thing is they don even know i am looking at them at the distance about 5 meters away from them... after they realize my presence, they just climbed back without apologize...

Then everyone ask me to forgive them since they said "SORRY" to us after that.... is that a "sorry" able to compensate what i had losses and suffer... if "sorry" able to do that, then i can disturb and revenge on them and tell them:" I AM F@#$ing sorry right before they die one day".... and asking for them forgiving.... HAHAHAHAHA


Why every one tell me to forgive without knowing the whole story?

Why does every one BLAMING for what i did without knowing my true feeling and don even know that i have sleepless night and nightmares?

WHY.....

Am i wrong is whatever i did? i just to protect and stand up for my family...